On Love and Life

I’ve seen little bits of myself
Crumble away with some years
When I’ve promised more than i should
When I’ve promised more than i could to stay myself

With a few jabs, a few well placed words
I start to look like buckshot long term
And I’m wondering to myself
Who am i anymore
And who am i doing this for

I’m not sure if it was us or
If its just this, but fuck whatever it was
I never want to hate my life again
I never want to live that life again
And if i find myself in that spot
I know ill just want it to stop and
Sometimes i wonder if I’m just better off
Being alone in the end

It feels so good then it turns
Warm to cold and hearts to numb
We stop being excited by each others face
And we start to see everything wrong

How do we arrange these hearts
So appreciation never stops
So kind never turns to bitter
So hope doesn’t become regret
But i feel in my heart that
This cycle will eventually stop
And maybe its just me growing
And realizing what is important to me